There is Hope

This is not a sponsored post. I am sharing this experience because lately I’ve found many of my favorite bloggers are really down in the dumps and I want to share that I made it through a very bleak time in my life. There is hope. Warning, it’s bloody long.

 

Life is sometimes a struggle. Life is always a learning experience. Life is filled with changes.

 

I remember when I was younger I use to say, “Life sucks and then you die”. Though this line speaks volumes about my childhood, I was in my teens, what the hell did I know of life back then?

 

After having my first two children, my line changed. It became, “Life is what you make it”.  Those girls were a blessing. They gave me hope, they gave me goals, they gave me a sense of responsibility and the strength to push forward through all the crud in life and make something of myself. I went from coasting along and blaming life for my circumstances to taking action and making my life (and theirs) my responsibility.

 

In October of 2001 my life went to crap. In short, my marriage ended, my children were without a father, I lost my job and I just didn’t know how to carry on. But this was necessary. It was the closing of a chapter in my life. The long of it can be found in my Winds of Change post. I recommend reading it if you’re feeling like you’re at the bottom of the sea and the surface seems too far to reach.

 

At the time, I still held on to life being what you make it, so I pulled on my big girl panties and carried on. Life got better, but after 4 years of life being just me, the girls and work, I realized I was coasting along again. I was maintaining but I wasn’t reaching for anything. I became depressed shortly after. It showed in everything I said and did. I had no hopes, no dreams, no goals. The loneliness of being a single parent and the responsibility of raising these two girls on my own and the fact that I had to be responsible for everything all the time with no one to fall back on and no shoulder to cry on . . . it had all become overwhelming.

 

As I’ve mentioned in “Psychic Reading Anyone?“ my girlfriend nudged me to reach out to a psychic. This changed my life dramatically. Not because he told me the “future”, (though the man was exactly right) but because he gave me guidance and hope. Now, I’m not knocking therapy. I’ve been through therapy recently with my teens and I can tell you it’s made big changes in our relationship. Huge improvements. But at that moment in my life, not only did I need to talk about my issues, not only did I need someone to guide me to work through them as a therapist would, but I needed hope. That one conversation with Gordon Banta, may he rest in peace, carried me for years. My line changed and became a belief I live by. I still believe life is what you make it. But I also believe Everything happens for a Reason and as @tarasophia so eloquently said on twitter: “It’s true: when one door closes, another opens. But sometimes you’ve got to close the door so that life can open a new one.”

 

In the 2nd half of 2010 my life was hit by crisis. It was like being hit by an earthquake and then a hurricane and THEN multiple tornadoes. Yes, not very different from our east coast weather lately. The first 4 months were hell, the past year, though difficult, was filled with hope. It’s too new and I just can’t go into details.

 

But, I CAN tell you the biggest issues have come to a close and it has ended in a happy new beginning.

 

AND I do want to share this aspect with you. As mentioned in “Psychic Reading Anyone?“, a year ago this month, I reached out to Mesina of Psychic Whispers. Not only did she give me hope, not only did she tell me this happy beginning was coming but she gave me perspective. This new beginning was not something I could expect to come. There was no reason or logic that could have proved to me a year ago that this was possible. But a year later, everything she has told me, big and small, pertaining to family and career, has come to pass. I won’t lie. I don’t feel it was “destined” to happen. I feel due to her guidance and the hope she gave me I was able to make the necessary choices to make it happen.

 

A year ago, before I emailed Mesina, I was at the bleakest moment of my life so far. The scariest moment. A moment filled with fears and doubts and loss and confusion. Lots of confusion. She helped me find my way through that. Mesina gave me hope so I could work through it.

 

I still went to therapy with my girls. I don’t see a reading as replacement for therapy. Therapy will help you work through issues where applicable (the reason i took the teens had nothing to do with the crisis that hit). The reading? That gave me hope where no one else I turned to, be it friend or professional, could.

 

I am at a place now where my family is happy again. I’m at a place now where this new beginning is more beautiful than what we had before crisis hit.

 

And career wise? There’s a new horizon. Things Mesina told me last year, came to pass on that front too. I really didn’t realize it until a few months ago. When chatting with my support group something was mentioned that unhinged a memory of the reading. I went back to read the emails Mesina had sent me and found that without me realizing it, I had already achieved some of the things she mentioned I would.

 

Because of my experience with Mesina, and because she’s bloody affordable, I want to offer a free One question email reading to one of my readers. I’m not sure if anyone else would be interested. Of course, many are skeptical, and that is fine. You should definitely be wary because as I mentioned in my psychic reading post, I have met some greedy people. But I find Mesina trustworthy and caring and authentic, so I’m happily suggesting her service for anyone who needs a bit of extra hope.

 

Again: This is not a sponsored post. I am sharing this experience because lately I’ve found many of my favorite bloggers are really down in the dumps and I want to share that I made it through a very bleak time in my life, that i found HOPE.
If you’d be interested in entering for a reading on me, please tweet this post, stumble it and leave ONE comment including this info: you’d like to be entered,  you tweeted and stumbled the post and anything else you’d like to share. Each action is an entry. The comment and tweet are required. The one question email reading is $11 US and I’ll happily give one away. This contest is open to bloggers only and your blog url must be entered into the URL field in the comment section. This contest closes September 17th. The winner will be announced Sept 19th with the information emailed to them. There is a 2 – 3 day waiting time on readings.

UPDATE 9/11/2011: Mesina, being the darling woman she is, is also offering a free one question reading. Also, if you’d like your reading RIGHT NOW or if you don’t win a freebie or if you’d like one of the other readings, Mesina is offering 20% off. You must use this link to receive your discount on a psychic reading.

So that is all my friends. I know, this post was bloody long and if you made it to the end, then thank you from the bottom of my heart. Share it with friends who are down in the dumps. Even if they have no interest in a reading, I want others to know, that even when life seems bleakest, there is hope.

Update 11/28/2012: I’ve been blessed with the appearance of someone new for guidance. She is a wonderful woman and you can learn about her here: http://afterbedtimeblog.com/mystic-tarot-reading-giveaway/ and http://afterbedtimeblog.com/motherhood/secret-mommy-hood-confession-saturday-3

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