Say it with me now…This Weekend Sucked
Seriously. Starting since Thursday. THIS weekend sucked.
I will save you the personal drama from having my mother live with me – the only hing I’ll say on the topic is, that indian tradition of taking care of your elders, can kiss my ass. I doubt the ones who came up with it, had a mother like mine. Also? I agree with the psycho babble that it begins with your mother. This is why I try my damnedest to be the person I am, to be a strong woman, an ambitious woman, a caring, human-loving-screw-discrimination and honest woman. I believe these will influence my children. What scares me about this line of thought though…some of us grow up to be just like our parents and some of us grow up to be the exact opposite. I am the exact opposite of my parents. I really hope the values I hold dear and try to instill in my kids will help them to be the exact opposite of my parents too.
So, how did the personal drama screw me since Thursday? I’ve barely eaten. I’ve barely slept. I’ve barely been remotely productive.
I have an awesome Friday Blogger Follow post sitting in drafts because I did not get to finish it. Going International Style with that one.
I’ve come to realize that someone I considered a blogging friend and who’ve i’ve tried to be supportive of, is just as bad as the bloggers I mentioned in the Comments post. Though this blogger only pretends to be a “big blogger”. Little by little I learn who to stand by and who’ll stand by me.
I finally merged the blogs, but i blew up this blog 6 times in the process and I didn’t get to redesign the new blog.
Today I was suppose to post my first Retrofit post here which includes a 1 year membership giveaway and a $500 discount for those who don’t win or can’t wait. Seriously, I’ve lost 15 lbs on this program in the first 11 weeks. Right now I’m maintaining because my butt has been glued to this chair while I work my tail off for weeks while hubby has been temporarily laid off. Thankfully I’ve learned enough good eating habits from my coaches to maintain. If you’d like to learn more about the journey, you can find my posts here.
And right now, I can’t even finish this post because I’ve got to run. I sincerely hope y’all had a better weekend than me.
Sorry for the rant, but sometimes, you just gotta let it out.
Before I go, I want to share with you a message my Retrofit program adviser left me on Thursday.
Hey Vanita…just a message for you as your start your day. Take deep breaths and bring yourself back to the current moment when your mind starts to wander to all the other stuff on your to-do list and you start to feel that crazy/overwhelmed/stressed feeling.
I know planning/prep feels impossible right now, but it will actually relieve stress for you when it comes time for meals and snacks, because those right choices will be available for you, you won’t have to have that inner battle of having no “good” choices available and feeling guilty after settling for something less than ideal.
You can do this – stay calm, stay focused and in the moment. – your team is here for you.
This made me cry.
I’ve gotta run. Catch y’all soon.